| | Every time I see her, I see every thing that I could have had, every
thing that I once had. It kills me just to look at her and even more
when she smiles, it reminds me of the past, when I would make her laugh
and just look at the one thing that mattered to me in my life. When I
was with her, I would forget every thing that happened before and only
think about her, she made every thing bad turn out good, she was the
only person that I can honestly say that I love, and she is the only
one that I can say that to. But people say things get worse before they
get better, thats bullshit, nothing ever gets better than before, it
just doesn't matter as much any more. Some days I wonder what would
have happened if I did cut the right spot on my wrist, would people be
happier if they didn't know me or is it better that they did meet me?
Every time some thing goes wrong, I hope that I will see her the next
day at school or any other place. I would do anything for her, and even
more to be able to hold her like I used to, to be able to hold her
hand, walk her to class, go to parks and walk around at night, every
time I see her these things come into my mind, and I start to regret
not doing some thing and regret doing somethings that I shouldn't have
done, said or written to her. I can tell her that I'm sorry my whole
life but that wont change anything, people say that we will end up
together again, but I don't think we will, at first I thought that ...
Now I know that I ruined the best thing in my life, its hard to let it
go, but it was also just as hard when we were still together and trying
not to do anything wrong to mess anything up, I did every thing wrong,
and I thought that I might have gotten one more chance, but it never
happened. When you love some one tell them, don't wait for some thing
bad to happen before you think of actually telling them how you really
feel, I fucked it up once and hopefully it wont happen again.
In soccer we haven't been doing our best, almost every body was
failling something, and people are starting to blame things on other
people that had nothing to do with it. My coach sucks, he doesn't know
what hes talking about some times, and brings the team down when he
should be trying to bring us up, what a bitch. Well we get a week off
till are actual season starts, and hopefully we will do better than we
did at the tourns, maybe some day coach will learn to listen to what we
have to say, because some of the stuff we say can be useful.This is it
for now, TaLk LaTeRz...
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